When I came back from the Iraq war, I had some of the PTSD symptoms. I was very anxious, and hyper vigilant all the time. I was incredibly fearful that I was going to die young, but I never expressed this to anyone. I always wanted a family, but I did not want to get married and then die off early and leave a widow to raise children on her own.
One day around 2009 to 2010 I was at a meeting with my friend Mary Crews, who was ministering and is INCREDIBLY gifted in the prophetic. She delivers many Words straight from God to individuals. She is AMAZINGLY accurate and gifted. www.MaryCrews.com is her website. Although I am also a prophet by calling, I have been praying for my gift of prophesy to be at Mary’s level.
Anyways, Mary prophesied over me and I heard God tell me what nobody knew I was suffering from. Mary said she saw a vision of me, quite old, working in a warehouse. And the emphasis was on the fact that I was old and would live to an old age. This Word was EXACTLY what I needed to hear at that time.
A Dream Come True
I was praying about whether I should get married. And then one night I had a dream.
I was laying in bed on top of dark blue sheets. And two little kids extremely close in age came running in saying “Daddy Daddy!”. There was a little boy and a little girl that were maybe between ages 3 and 5. I was not able to see who or if there was a woman laying next to me in the bed, so I did not get a sneak peek at who my wife was.
That dream motivated me to consider pursuing marriage. Something about being a Dad seemed like the best thing in the world.
On March 03, 2018, the first of those kids was born. That was my son Oliver. On January 12, 2019, my daughter Ella was born. They are 10 months apart.